last night, i was hanging out with shen and (as i am apt to do when i am with shen) proceeded to reflect on and complain about life. in my ramblings i told her about an incident that made me lose all motivation to do something, that completely changed all my priorities here at MIT.

funnily enough, i had almost completely blocked those feelings out my memory, prior to recounting them yesterday. it astonishes me somewhat that afterwards, i was shaking with... who knows what--an overflow of emotion? i had forgotten just how much that incident had affected me. still affects me, apparently.

i remember all too clearly now.